Eternity

Woke up late today,why didn't my alarm bell ring on time? ohh, i had to take my medicines on time,mother would be so upset that i forgot to take them. She is working very hard to get me these expensive medicines.Something is looking changed today, don't know what, but there is some difference. Where is mom, where is everyone. Why didn't anybody wake me up on time??
Last night i slept a bit late. i had gone for my routine check up yesterday evening and the doctor said that i was recovering fast. he said i had shown an unexpected improvement within the past couple of days.Mom was very happy, she baked for me my favourite chocolate cake yesterday.Since the time my father has died in a road accident, mom has no aim in life but to fulfil all my desires. Unfortunately i was in the same car as my father, technically speaking i was alive as my heart and brain are functioning but i cannot do anything on my own. My condition was deteorating and doctors told that i had only some days to live, but since the past month i was showing improvement. Maybe that improvement was coming from within. I did not want to leave my mom alone in this big bad world. I am the only asset she has and i can see it in her eyes. I know she is broken from inside but pretends to be stong in front of this world. Somewhere within her, she knows that i would not survive for long.I love her so much,had it not been for her, i would have died much before. Her love keeps me going but my health is not supporting me. I know that after some time, i would not be here. Who would take care of my innocent mother,Who would she call her own, I know she wont be able to live without me. This thought is scaring me more!!
These were the routine thoughts which came to my mind every single day, but where is she right now.Wait a second, i can hear someone crying.Ohh, that is the sound of my mother. Where is she, why is she crying.I am feeling so helpless.I got up,to my biggest surprize, i got up without any pain!!! Am i recovering? The doctor yesterday said that i was showing drastic improvement.He was right,i can get up without any pain. This is awesome. I shall tell it to her as early as possible. She would be so happy!
I went to the drwaing room. "Why are so many people here!!" - was my first thought. Why is the atmosphere so gloomy. Why is my mother crying like hell, someone please go tell her that i m recovering so fast. I saw my doctor also there. I wanted to talk to him. I wanted to inform everyone that i am fine, i can walk on my own. I am called my mom , i am shouting but why is nobody listening to me?? Why has everyone gone deaf??
Enough, i shall grab my mom hard and tell her to stop crying as i m fine now.
Briskly, i went to her, but my steps got slower and slower..... I saw someone lying on the floor. I saw a very familiar face there... IT WAS ME...it was me who was lying there unconscience. Everything seemed blurred.My mother was crying bitterly, she was holding my hand in hers. She was shattered, she was boken.
How desparatly i wanted to tell her that i am there, in the same room... close to her....but she could not see me....
First time was i feeling so helpless, so frustrated, so shattered. I could do nothing for her..nothing.... i even died while sleeping without informing her that how much i loved her, how thankful i am to her.
God please help my mother, give her the courage to face the truth, give her the patience to accept the fact that her family is not with her now...
I will be merged with eternity...I will merge with GOD, but please God, give my mother the courage to live...the courage to breathe..the courage to face life....